“I've been missing you for so many days
I keep wanting you, lord, in so many ways
I cant get you off of my mind
But true love is so hard to find.”
-Otis Redding

In retrospect, it was not a good idea to fall in love with you. You are stubborn and distrusting and you treated my heart like it wasn’t precious or unique or worth keeping. After all that, you turned your head and walked away! I can only assume this means you don’t love me back, which makes me feel sick to my stomach.

When my brain has finally concluded that this is all for the best, that I should find someone deserving of my love, I will still feel utterly wretched for 90 days. Then, the moment you call me (you always do) I will repeat this godawful cycle of nonsense and suffering.